{"id":11598,"date":"2021-01-08T20:22:29","date_gmt":"2021-01-08T19:22:29","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.arenamartinez.com\/?p=11598"},"modified":"2022-04-20T14:29:40","modified_gmt":"2022-04-20T12:29:40","slug":"2020-by-gabriela-vera","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.arenamartinez.com\/en\/blog\/2020-by-gabriela-vera","title":{"rendered":"2020 by Gabriela Vera"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Dear all,<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">From<a href=\"https:\/\/www.arenamartinez.com\/sobre-arena-martinez\"> Arena Martinez<\/a> we wanted to wish you a wonderful 2021! We would like to share with you a great letter from my great friend <a href=\"https:\/\/instagram.com\/gabyavera?igshid=umzt5ry2dbdh\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Gabriela Vera<\/a>, who sent me by mail to end 2020 and welcome this new one.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">I hope you like it.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Much love and good luck in this new year!<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Arena Martinez<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<h1 style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400; color: #ff0000;\">2020<\/span><\/h1>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Since two or three years ago, I do not remember correctly, I started writing an online letter to my friends and family and share with them a little about my year. I call it \u201cGaby\u2019s Tales\u201d, I make a literary cocktail where I mix a lot of emotions, because that\u2019s who I am. I know they would\u2019ve probably laughed, and cried but I never dared to send the letter, although I only needed to press send. Today December 29th of 2020, I start writing my year in summary, and I\u2019m sure of two things. First I can\u2019t allow myself not to write about this year, and second, by not sending my letter the years before- and dare myself start a new tradition that I really wanted to start, because of the fear of feeling vulnerable- The lesson that is repeated to us the most, takes a hold of m, and after many stumbles, some of us have the joy to finally understand it: \u201cOne loses a 100% of the chances one doesn\u2019t take\u201d.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I sit down to write, at the same cafe where the coffee is bad but the company is good, and I look around me.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">There are six more people other than me, there are two that come from jogging in El Retiro park, and other two catching up. I assume we have nothing in common, but somehow I feel close to them at the same time. We are all here december 29th 2020, and that says a lot by itself. We have all survived, probably we\u2019ve all cried to, we\u2019ve had a bad time, we\u2019ve all felt the fear and the uncertainty, and I can predict that after thinking that we couldn\u2019t take it anymore and that nothing made sense, even the slightest detail made us all laugh, after months of gloominess.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">That feeling, \u201chope is the last thing you lose\u201d, according to great resilient people (and grandmas) it\u2019s always there, it\u2019s just hard to see, and one wrongfully assumes it\u2019s not with you. Then when you go out on the street, a little low on energy still, things start happening, like a baby watching me while a try to eat some ice cream pulling my face mask up and down- and making a mess of myself- he laughs at me, laugh at myself, we share a laugh, and right there in that instant if you don\u2019t think life is great, you just lost a great moment.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">This is what my hands are trying to say today, instantly after finishing that very last sentence, I realize I\u2019m alive, what a privilege. Thanks, thanks, and thanks.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The ambition of a writer can take you to wanting to tell it all in one story, in other opportunities it also hides behind the intellectuality of analogies only some can understand. I want everyone to understand me, and I\u2019m not going to tell it all, just going to tell what\u2019s necessary.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">What a word, right? Essential, when I was a little girl and I didn\u2019t understand a word I used to look it up in the dictionary, it was fun for me. I would like to invite you to look up it\u2019s meaning, because for a lot of time now, we have trivialized it. This year has taught us a lot, and in the most espiritual way. In one of my long moments of introspective, something revealed itself to me like a movie- that I could both watch and feel- what is that that is essential to me. I felt exactly what my mind, body and soul needed. And if I close my eyes I can relive it and hold on to that memory:<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019m with my family, laughing, singing and dancing to some latin beat that my shoulder, feet and hips recognize instantly. Eating surrounded by genuine love, telling stories, hugged, I didn\u2019t need my expensive elegant shoes that I bought last year, I\u2019m barefoot, standing, walking, really the highest luxury. Like Albert Camus said \u201cIn the middle of winter I finally learned that there was an invincible summer inside of me\u201d this memory will always be my sun, and warm breeze.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">About this ending year I can say it got off to a good start. Everything was going wonderfully, I even started making plans! I met a great love, who came to be an important one. And then they confined us. They separated us physically from a lot of things, traditions, work, from life as we knew it, and from the latest conquest. But life goes on, I ended things up with my boyfriend, on facetime of course. I learned to live with myself, which is not the same as living alone. I learned to take care of myself, to not take care of myself, and to take care of myself again. I felt sad, happy, energetic, desperate. \u201cIt\u2019s fine\u201d I said to myself, all of this is part of me and I welcome any feeling, even if it isn&#8217;t silk to do. For more tantrums of Gaby with Gaby, I realize that I can\u2019t control the situation. That Gaby the fighter can\u2019t save the world from Covid, and in this moment of acceptance with what it is, alone in my apartment I learned to live with myself again. You start by understanding one thing or two about life, and you feel that vital energy that lives inside you that tells you that this shall pass to.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">And like all passes, the same way that leaves from trees are born to fall, and after a cold, grey winter, without much planning, without any expectations, they simply just let themselves guide by something bigger, and they are reborn, you are reborn as well.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">All of the sudden it\u2019s August, and I get an invitation to Ibiza. I long for the sea and take on adventures, and so I go. I\u2019m outdoors, I can smell the sea breeze, I have a couple of era pounds but I can\u2019t be happier with my bikini and the tan lines the sun leaves on me after a beach day. I\u2019m in the coves of the mediterranean, that are as espectacular, if not more, as when they tell you about them in famous songs. I go into the sea, float, there\u2019s little jellyfishes, sea urchins, and I don\u2019t care, I swim naked, I feel free and I create another great memory of my life.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I transport to the plains in Venezuela, where I once- in that time where it\u2019s not day anymore but it\u2019s not night yet- I floated on a river of sweat water and I was happy. My hands were sticking to the water, and then I remembered about- possibly- the only thing I learned in physics class at school: superficial tension. This phenomenon that results from the cohesive forces between molecules, where the solid can\u2019t break the thin barrier that lays over the surface of the liquid and it elevates. Just as insects do, that walk over water without drowning. In that moment my hands are as light as an insect, but it\u2019s only because my mind is at peace, nothing worries me, everything is perfect just the way it is and I\u2019m happy. I give thanks to this amazing island for having reminded me of this feeling inside me and outside of it\u2019s waters that for many it\u2019s sacrate.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">This year I\u2019ve win, and I\u2019ve lost, like almost anyone that lives with me, and at the end I focus on what I\u2019ve won. The strength of gratitude makes me write, dream, open myself up to life. And for opening myself up to life, I see masters everywhere \u201ceveryone has something to teach me\u201d I think\u2026 and when my inspiration goes away, I leave the Cafe and stumble into Geno, Geno is a Bulgarian immigrant known by the name of \u201cKiko\u201d y he has a pizza place very close from my apartment. Kiko and I talk sometimes, when from the window of his kitchen he asks me \u201cWhat are you reading?\u201d the first time I was reading \u201cTales of a castaway\u201d. I say to him: \u201cKiko, this actually happened, a man spent ten days at sea without knowing what would happen to him\u201d. He gets interested without showing it, but my intuition tells me that there\u2019s something there and his eyes give it away. Gino feels identified\u2026 Gaby too\u2026 maybe you too. And in moments like this, I remember a song that my eight years old niece wrote, and it goes like this: \u201cI can see so easily what\u2019s behind your eyes, a giant heart beating, that does not wish to keep on hiding\u201d Kids are geniuses! It\u2019s essential that we allow\u00a0 ourselves to have more moments like this, to show what we really are, and from where we come from.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">So, what I get from the said before, is not how wonderful is Garcia Marquez- although he indisputably is- it\u2019s something else. It\u2019s vital to share the great privilege of time with those with whom you share your most deep values, and virtues, with whom you can be your most authentic and genuine you. If you find a Geno, a doctor, or a street sweeper- It doesn\u2019t matter- a person that lights you up with his or her presence and has something beautiful to bring to your path, you\u2019re receiving a gift. At the end, one realizes that those little unexpected things and encounters are the most surprising and fulfilling. It\u2019s here where for me, the magic of life lives. To finish up, I would like to wish- not only for 2021- but for ever, some ideas that I got from a song from Joaqu\u00edn\u00a0 Sabina and Joan Manuel Serrat and I carry it practically tattooed on my days:<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400; color: #008080;\">May your luggage do not drag your wings,<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400; color: #ff0000;\">May your calendar do not bring you rush,<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400; color: #800080;\">May I love you win the battle of the people,<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400; color: #800000;\">May the end of the world catches you dancing,<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400; color: #008080;\">May all the moons be honeymoons,<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400; color: #000080;\">May the truths come without complex,<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400; color: #ff0000;\">May you look whatever you like,<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400; color: #800080;\">May the abandonment do not take over you,<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400; color: #800000;\">May been brave do not come at a high price,<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400; color: #000080;\">May been coward not be worth it,<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400; color: #008080;\">May they do not buy you for less than nothing,<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400; color: #000080;\">May they do not sell you love without thornes,<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-weight: 400; color: #ff0000;\">May the heart never go out of style.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">Gabriela Vera<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Dear all, From Arena Martinez we wanted to wish you a wonderful 2021! We would like to share with you a great letter from my great friend Gabriela Vera, who sent me by mail to end 2020 and welcome this new one. I hope you like it. Much love and good luck in this new [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":11612,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[50],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11598","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-blog"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.arenamartinez.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11598","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.arenamartinez.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.arenamartinez.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.arenamartinez.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.arenamartinez.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=11598"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.arenamartinez.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11598\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.arenamartinez.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/11612"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.arenamartinez.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=11598"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.arenamartinez.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=11598"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.arenamartinez.com\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=11598"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}